Hi 2014!

Nope.
This is not the new me.
It is the same Syahida.

Tak de new year new me bullshit.

Tak de selfie Happy New Year on ig too.
Tak de ucapan hipster di twitter juga.
Cuma ini.
Bingkisan ini.

How i spend my new year's eve?
Fancy dinner dengan boyfie? Nah.
Romantic scenery of firework pung pang pung pang? Nah.

I spent the day with my newborn niece. 2 days old.
Welcome to the world Raaina Amani.
You are now surrounded by the morons ; humans.
Ah you baru je jerit just now.
Boleh pulak atuk you panggil i mok de?
Bila i cakap "aunty Sya la" boleh dia cakap nak tercabut jantung dia dengar.

Sabar je la Papa tu.
I wish you were reading this Papa.
Sorry that sometimes i am such a cranky, stubborn daughter.
Well actually, all the time.

Sorry that sometimes i feel like running away from you guys.
Sebab you guys selalu freak out, and I happen to freak out too!
And i hate this emotional trait on me.
Thanks to you Papa.

But i  love both you and Mak unconditionally.

Sorry.
That i am wrong, thinking that distance will change my feeling towards you.
Macam jauh bau bunga, dekat bau tahi.

I cuma bosan bermalas-malasan duduk rumah.
Unproductive me punca i am having this thought.

Yours,
Scumbag Syahida.

Oh my!

It has been a hectic week.
Ni baru a day back to college after raya break.
Ive been thru bullshits and stuff lately.
Assignment menunggu, warning letter menanti.
Or maybe kena bar?

Oh ease my pain please

Aidiladha

Selamat menjalani ibadah qurban!
I'm so excited. Mak masak so many dish.
Semalam soto, today ada bubur jagung.
And of course rendang daging!
Lemang beli sahajo.
Esok ada mee bandung.

Till then. Daaaa

2AM

Setiap post aku yang end with 'bye' macam acah-acah budak sekolah baru blogging pulak. Nyampah angattt.

Wallpaper baru. Gambar dengan crush.

Isk poyo laa berapa umur kau nak ada crush crush ni?

Mampus hang la.

Busy. Lesson plan dah cantik edit rasanya dah ngan content standard learning standard tu. Tak cari article untuk final exam paper lagi. Leceh ah nak buat soalan spm bagai. Article review? Tak gerak lagi. Bukan satu article tapi tiga baq hang. Jumaat ni role play untuk human comm. Aku main mak-mak.

Ni lah penangan tidur petang.

Tadi pagi lepas 8 am class gua balik rumah sempat tidur dua jam sampai 12. 5 mins before 12 berangkat kelas. Habis kelas at 2 gua sambung kroh kroh sampai 6.

Gua mimpi mak tanya dah isya belum?

Gua lopong senyap.

Mak goncang badan gua "dah isya ke belum?!"

Right after mak goncang badan gua tu, gua terbangun.

Cis.

Tak sempat nak kabor gua period.

Fyp

Ia amat memenatkan.

Walaupon aku tak de lah kerah tenaga macam orang lain.

Paah laa yang paling aku salute.

Buat most of the deco alone ok.

Sampai tak tidur malam.

Aku setakat cat beberapa botol and tulis welcome kat paper plate.

Macam mau bagi sikit tampar.

Ah malas laa nak share kat sini gambar event tadi.

Jangok. Sangat.

Aku post kat insta je. Tu pon sebab semua orang dok post, gua pon jangok nak jugak.

Juga wechat.

Bye.

Why so serious...

Suka

Aku suka surround myself with people i love the most, and love me back.

Terasa seperti i light up the room chewwah.

Semalam pulun buat deco for our event sabtu ni.

Tak tidur. Tidur2 ayam je.

Had a good time tho.

Before that lepak dagang with classmates. Cerita noks2.

Aih aku sayang mereka ni.

Cyka is pronounce as suka/sooka.

It's russian.

And it means bitch.

Lul.

Confession bear

I actually hate everyone

*insert confession bear meme*

Except my family & close friends

Sabar sya, tak lama dah kau akan hadap semua ni.

I want a fresh start, so badly ;(

Cuddly weather

Don't you just love this?

The nice not too cold weather.

The sound of not-so-heavy rain pouring.

I love this. I just love this. I love the fact that i find myself loving this.

Why?

It kinda brings back good memories.

In this very same environment.

Almost the same smell of air i breath in.

Nope, i don't wish i could turn back time.

I'm glad of what happened.

Well, at some point, you'll get it what "things happen for a reason" means.

Ah i seriously can't believe this but i still can remember what songs stuck in my head at that time - a thousand years, it will rain, the one that got away. 

Ahhh rindu rindu rindu. But wait.

I think it was not a year ago, lol.

Now is 2013. Yeah i think it was end of 2011. When was that twilight was out eh? Coz i remember the songs were new at that time.

Soooo seriously it was 2 years ago? Wowww. Nasib baik i mention bout the songs and it hit me.

I missed the morning smell.

I missed shivering in the morning.

I missed driving really early every morning.

And i remembered the visit to a nursery where i knew this kind of flower called "bunga burung" something like that hahaha now it sounds funny to me. Ok will check that flower name later.

I missed the sleepless night.

I missed the sore eyes.

I missed the ym chatting every morning.

So my point is, being in this weather do remind me of all those good thing i experiencing in life. And most of the important thing is, i missed having that.

So, be grateful coz He knows the best for you, He kept the ones that important in your life for you to learn how to appreciate them.

Honestly speaking, i've never tried berdoa in my last sujud - a really long sujud like in solat hajat, so last few days i give it a try. Ah i don't know how i ended up tearing (so does when writing this hahaha)

So i better stop now. Good day people.

There is...

Oh how am i going to interpret this so that i didnt sound like making fun of that particular people, or sounds like a biyatch.

Surprisingly...

There is...

There is actually...

A guy out there...

That...

Have a crush...

On...

Me...?

Im blushed. But flattered jugak at the same time (was writing sane time lol macam make sense jugak)

Kononnya "i was real" "not like other girl yang cover-cover" lolll

Thanks faiz. U made my day ;)

I have a lot of thing to say macam biasa.

But i got old.

So i forgot.

Humm. I watched safe haven just now. Cerita nicholas sparks ni kalau tak buat aku sobbing berhingus bagai tak sah la kan?

I skipped class. It was 8am class. Lepas one week break pulak tu. konklusi? Tarik selimut dan kroh kroh.

Oh ya! I got a haircut.

I tak nak tunjuk my long bob haircut. I kinda hate it now. Masa potong and after blowdry kemain haa melompat suka. Now i dont even wanna see myself in a mirror.

Dan ada minor accident hari tu. Terkepit my thumb kat pintu kereta. Sakit sampai hari ni k. Nak mandi sejuk-sejuk sakit ke tulang k (yeap i exaggerate)

Now sebelum go to bed, marilah membaca doa tidur ye puan-puan which i selalu tertukar with doa makan -,-

rain rain go away

eh teringat pulak keek dr halina, bella nyanyi rain rain go away ni.
nah tak de kaitan pon.
cuma nak bagi tau i'll be away for a week.
sesi terapi menenangkan diri.
bye pipols.