4 AM thoughts

1. I'm blogging again since I dah reduced my social network 'usage', no longer on Facebook and Twitter, giving up Snapchat too (gimme a break, blog doesn't do much damage compared to those stated). Instagram je I can't let go.
2. I reverted all my previous post, I malu laaaa baca old posts hahahahaha
3. And I won't post "oh look what I just bought at Sephora" kind of post, unless it's an affordable thing, who doesn't like something that doesn't cost a fortune kan? Lipstick paling mahal I own pon is 30 hengget je, I don't know how people can spend hundreds on one lipstick or one shawl/tudung.

I nak cakap ni. I applied for JPA. Permohonan anda tidak berjaya kays. Sedih. Hahahaha. Now that I am back being a student sangatlah menyakitkan hati lolololol and yes I think about quitting like everyday. Tambah-tambah lagi tengok kawan dah kerja dah pakai kereta sendiri. And I was like "I am supposed to be working my ass off and gaining 3 years of working experience instead of 3 years in uni"

And hey, I tak malu nak share this here. It is to clarify why I'm unhappy in uni. I think I'm too old for that shit.

I will share banyak things lagi. I nak cerita banyak benda and post banyak pictures without me sounding like I'm showing off my life. I point benda ni coz like other women, I stalked. And came across someone di luar sana, big fat brag-ger. In fact, I promised my bf and my sis I'm not gonna stalk him/her anymore.

I usually tell people "I'm full of hatred." Hatred and dengki from my point of view are two different thing. Hatred; you simply hate this person without any reason and don't wanna be like them. Dengki; you wanna be in his/her shoes. Okay lemme point out an example. Hatred - Pe hal dia ni. Okay fine dah taubat dah berubah. Tapi asal kat instagram nak tulis jutawan termuda, showing off his cars and all his harta? Dengki - Ugh tahu laa putih lawa, pakai apa pon lawa. Hashtag huntung yaaaaa. Kalo aku putih gebu gebas kurus cenggini pon boleh laku jual tudung apa bagai.

Ha, see my point tak?

Okay my LAST POINT, I kurangkan scrolling my Facebook, Twitter, Snapchat because I can't have what most people have. Kawan dah ada kerja, I can't have that. Kawan ada kereta baru, I can't have that. Kawan kawen, I can't have that. Kawan own a business and doing really well, I can't have that. Ini simply dengki, but a good kind of dengki. Honestly I'm happy for them, and wanna have what they have.

And hatred is different, hatred is "show off gila, fuck off"

Pleaseeeeeee say you get it now? Please? I'm not alone kan?